Category Linkin Park

Three Months Later by hybridgurl

Chapter 1

Author: hybridgurl

Title: Three Months Later

Rating: PG-13

Category: Angst

Disclaimer: I don't own or know Linkin Park (no matter how much I wish I did...I do own this plot and this computer though so all is not lost!)

A/N: This story is just a short standalone fic that I came up with the other day and decided that it'd be good to ease me back into the wonderful, and sometimes weird world of Linkin Park fan fiction. I used to write on fanficton.net but we all know what happened there so here I am. The story is written in a way that it can be about any two band members that you like so use your imagination people! And if you be nice and leave me a review I'll give you a cookie! Enjoy...

Three Months Later

It's been three months.

Three months since I arrived on your doorstep in the pouring rain.

Three months since I took down my emotional walls and bared my soul to you.

Three months since I told you the truth. The truth that neither one of us wanted confirmed.

It's been three months since I let those six deadly little words spill so carelessly from my mouth; "I'm falling in love with you..."

I instantly wanted to take it back when I saw the look on your face.

It was a mistake.

My tears stung my eyes but I held them back.

It was a mistake - I shouldn't have come.

It's been three months since you slammed the door in my face.

A part of my soul cracked along with the crisp white paint of the door.

I don't bother to wipe away the tears that are cascading down my cheeks as I relive the awful scene in my head for what has to be the millionth time.

"What do you want? I thought I told you not to come here anymore"

Your words still sting just as much as they did on that faithless day.

"I-I-I need to talk to you - it's important...can I come in?" My voice was strained with the effort of trying not to break down into tears; you stood there and studied me from head to toe.

What a sorry sight I must have looked.

Your eyes drank in my image and you frowned.

Was I that repulsive to you?

The rain was getting heavier. I shivered as the wind blew slightly.

"I don't think that that's such a great idea - look just tell me what you want"

You were getting impatient.

I blurted the words out before I could stop myself; "I - I'm falling in love with you..."

A wave of silence crashed over is.

I felt like I was drowning.

I looked into your dark eyes.

You didn't need to say anything.

I could see it all; shock, hurt, confusion, pain, betrayal and finally anger.

You broke the silence first.

"Don't...don’t you ever say that again..."

There were tears in your eyes, your voice was cracking.


The word was said quietly, but with so much force that I nearly fell backwards.

“If you ever come near me again, I swear I’ll-”

You were shaking.

How pathetic I must have seemed to you.

“I –I –I” I stuttered but it was too late.


You stormed back inside and slammed the door so hard that it left my ears ringing.

I was numb. I couldn’t breathe.

I heard you throw something against the door from the inside.

I turned and I ran.

I ran as fast as I could, unsure of where I was going but just knowing that I just had to get away from you before I did something stupid.

Tears and rain blurred my vision but I didn’t care. I had to get away.

I couldn’t believe that this was happening.

I deluded myself into thinking that this, that we, could work out.

I should have known from the start that it wouldn’t. It was too complicated.

I don’t know even now what I was expecting from you that day.

Did I honestly think that you would welcome me with open arms, kiss me softly, hold me close and tell me that we would be together forever?

Or did I think that somehow you would tell me you felt the same?

I was so naïve.

Something that should have been a fairytale ended up a nightmare and it was my fault.

I blamed myself.

You were happy until I came along and destroyed your perfect little world.

I had broken everything you held dear.

I was the reason she left you.

I was the reason that your eyes were void of all emotion bar pain.

I hurt you.

It was my fault you felt pain.

I took your perfection and I marred it.

The very worst part of you is me.

So that’s why I sit here, three months later, in the small white porcelain bathroom of my apartment, half drunk with a knife in my right hand.

Because if I can’t have your love then I’m worth nothing.

You were my life line.

You kept me breathing.

But now you’re gone.

And I can’t breathe…


A/N: Oh I forgot to mention - for me it was Mike and Chaz ^_^

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