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2. Secrets by lpfan503

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From: halvlang

Date: 2018-12-30

Chapter: 43

Great chapter. Mike and Ches are really getting closer and closer to the most important thing - their feelings for each other. I wouldn't have expected porn to be the starting point of some serious discussions but hey... whatever it needs!


Can't wait to see how you wrap this up - I've reserved a whole day where I will start reading Secrets again and than continue with Confession to see how well everything build up!

From: JellyfishLP

Date: 2018-12-29

Chapter: 43

Oh man, such an AMAZING chapter. Mike using Chester's computer and trying to secretly watch his recently seen porn was great. What was even better was their conversation after he got caught. It sounds weird, but I actually could imagine that such a situation/conversation might have happened between them xD


But that's just me having strange thoughts, so feel free to ignore it...


Mike is so deep in denial in this story, which is why I impatiently await the sequel ;)


Please update soon!!!

From: hearts.on.fire

Date: 2018-12-28

Chapter: 43

I can't believe there's only two chapters left! And I can almost guarantee I'll immediately reread Confessions while waiting on the sequel :).

From: mermaid_life87

Date: 2018-12-27

Chapter: 43

Reading back over my review, I realized I forgot two major things I wanted to mention. First, Im hoping we get to see how Chester's talk with Talinda goes. Im thinking she was behind Chester's decision to tell Mike they should start sleeping seperately? And I don't even mean in a spiteful, angry spouse kinda way. But in an honestly trying to be helpful kinda way. Which, by the way, I love how you've written her in these stories

From: mermaid_life87

Date: 2018-12-27

Chapter: 43

You did an amazing job writing all the tension in this chapter. Wow

From: Penelope_Ink

Date: 2018-12-27

Chapter: 43

So many things about this chapter. I think I'll make a list. And these are in no particular order.


1. Mike with Chester's laptop. I love how he's not surprised that Ches has the PornHub icon on his dock. Doesn't even question it lol that just cracks me up....which makes me think, how much porn is Chester watching? Dock space is precious, you know?


2. The fact that Mike justifies clicking on the icon. Even if you take everything else out of the equation, that's like, Mike. What are you doing? lol and I never think of Mike Shinoda watching porn. I just don't. So it's extra funny for me to watch him do this and all his...I'm just going to glance. Yeah. Right. No one just glances as porn XD


3. Once he's there, he goes right to Chester's recently watched. And he doesn't just go, "Oh, that's nice" no. No, no. He's clicking on it, and he's watching it, and he's even forwarding to the good part. lol Oh, Mike.


4. I love that the scene he's watching is a dark haired guy with a smaller blonde guy. *wink* I know exactly what you were thinking.


5. Mike's thoughts about how far he's actually thought about Chester. He says he's never really thought past a kiss, and yet the amount of erections he's had through this story for Chester....those must be some great kisses. haha or maybe his heart and his dick are just on the same page. You know? Just the innocent thoughts of kisses - with the right person - can be sexy as hell.


6. Chester walking in and being totally unaware. Chester walking in and Mike being totally unaware. I love it. I love when Chester is talking about lyrics as he sits on the bed, and then stops mid sentence when he sees what Mike's doing.


7. If I lose track of my numbers, forgive me.


8. Chester offering for Mike to keep watching. Or for them to watch together. And of course this comment about watching lots of porn together over the years...come again? I need to know more about that!


9. Mike's utter denial of everything I think is perfect. The way he gets defensive and even puts it back on Chester with the, I didn't figure you'd be into any of this sort of stuff because of your past. I think that's a really realistic thought to have.


10. I LOVE Chester's answers to everything. Everything that comes out of his mouth is perfect. I especially love how he's so casual about it. Yeah, I like to watch it now and again. So what? Yes. Exactly. Calm down, Mike.


11. The idea/thought that Mike wouldn't want to sleep next to him anymore because of all this, was just heartbreaking. And I'll be honest, with how Mike was freaking out, I almost thought Chester as right :( my little Bennoda heart would have been crushed, so I'm glad it didn't go that way. But still. Had me worried.


12. Thank goodness Mike set it all straight at the end. I'm glad he reassured Ches and even went so far as to try and figure out where/how/when Chester would have had his prostate experience. I want to know more about that, too.


So all in all, I loved the chapter. I love that they can talk about this stuff, and it wasn't an immediate run from the room oh my god I'm so embarrassed type moment. I think it shows their level of friendship and trust. And that Chester didn't get upset that Mike was spying around on his computer. Again, trust.


So okay, I'm ready for the next. I want some answers to things....and I want to see this conversation Chester is going to have with Talinda. Their relationship is so, so, idk. Different, I guess, from what is usually portrayed. With lots of levels. Like, one minute Chester's all, you're the hottest thing on the planet, let's make out and then he's all asking her if he should kiss Mike back lol. It's an interesting dynamic. Which I know a lot of that was brought up in Confession, too.


Anyway, loved it! Bring on the next :)

From: halvlang

Date: 2018-12-25

Chapter: 42

1: Happy Holidays!


2: A sequel?!? YES!


3: What a wonderful chapter. Obviously it's not wonderful that Mike can't sleep and feels so bad for not being with Ches, but that's part of the story (but also makes me really want a fluff-sequel even more). It explains so much how things just get so intense so fast after they finally have the talks in Confessions and at the same time it explains Mike/Anna in that story a bit more.


4: Ches and Mike talking without words is my favourite thing ever. I could have a whole story of both of them not talking but actually talking. Seriously.


5: Seeing Josh's name on the screen made me smiling like an idiot. It's not that I had forgotten about him but it is still nice that you brought him in here, that just makes things "more real", like... all the different developments in Confessions are having such a long background story, that's just lovely. And fuck, I think I have said this before, but I really think you are making something special here, writing this story after the other, I have so much respect for how things are interlocked!

From: mermaid_life87

Date: 2018-12-24

Chapter: 42

Wait, wait, wait...there's a sequel after this??? Omg! How in the holy hell did I miss you mentioning that?? I could kick myself! Im so for it that Im already there

From: JellyfishLP

Date: 2018-12-23

Chapter: 42

I really liked this chapter, and now, I'm even more curious for that sequel you mentioned. Can't help but feel bad for Anna, though, but bennoda will always win, haha :)

From: hearts.on.fire

Date: 2018-12-23

Chapter: 42

Uggh, so anxious to see how this one is going to wrap up. LOVE the subtle link ups that are happening, like Josh <3. I really liked the rehearsal bit- seeing the back and forth between the guys about which song and where to put it in the steps list. I can see that so clearly.

From: Penelope_Ink

Date: 2018-12-23

Chapter: 42

First off, yay! for the band mate game :) It's so cute, in RL and in your story. I love that you included it. Now. Mike. Oh, Mike. Waking up with a hard on from thinking about Chester...oh boy. And that he admits that it's happened often. He's got it for Chester SO bad, and you can just feel how trapped he is. And even though he loves his kids and loves Anna, he's trapped. And I think this chapter showed that to me more than any of the others. Him standing in the bathroom trying to calm down, mentally and physically was just...idk. It got to me. And then he goes from that to sketching Chester from his dream. I know I've said this in other reviews, but I like him having this secret sketch book that he hides from Anna. That is just his private drawings of Chester. And when she comes in so innocently and even brings him coffee, he so slyly changes the subject and hides the book and even takes it to the studio.


Their band meeting was so hectic. Or at least it felt that way. The bickering and such, and I can only guess that there would be a lot of discussion about things when there's six of you. That's a lot of people to get on the same page about stuff.


I agree with the guys about Sharp Edges. Having Brad and that song in the middle to break up the heaviness, I get it. I think it was selfish of Mike to do what he did....and I hope that Chester will be okay. Even as he's there trying to convince himself, clearly he's worried and that should be enough for Mike to let his own desires go for his friend's wellbeing.


I like seeing Josh here :) I'm glad he was included. And the bit about Mike telling everyone what to do was funny. I adore it when Chester plays along and then whispers to Mike, "You know I was just kidding, right?" Of course he does lol


The very last paragraph of this I think was my favorite. With Mike and Chester deciding to talk all the way home, and Mike picking the longer route...again. He's a desperate man at this point, and he's grabbing for every little thing he can get. You can feel it all coming to a head, and I can't wait.

From: Esmeralda

Date: 2018-12-22

Chapter: 42

Awww.. 'The bandmate game' is one of my favorite LP videos from 2017, as well as 'I'm the best member of my band'... it always makes me smile.. and you can see how close Mike and Chester really were. I love the twist you put in here with Mike getting turn on just for Chester's sight and touch. And Mike waking up beside Anna but with a hard on after dreaming of Chester. This is really messed up.


Mike expected to go like that forever, it is sad to see that he just thinks about the kids, the wives, the band, his parents.. what would everyone say if they know about his true feelings? And even if Chester feels the same.. Mike can just imagine he wouldn't do anything about it.. he thinks like that probably because he doesn't know just yet... of course he will do something once he knows Chester reciprocates his feelings. At least we know that.


The bit with the sketchbook made me cringe. I was so afraid Anna was going to see the drawings.. that would truly be awful. Good thing Mike was able to hide it, even if that sounds just terrible. I cannot even imagine what would Anna think about her husband if she finds out.


For some reason I loved this line: “But with you and me, we’re equals. Always have been. Always will be.” it's almost like he is implying that Mike is the boss in the studio (which everybody already knows) but in the bed they are equals maybe, as if they were already a couple.


And of course they cannot help missing each other so much and not being able to sleep if they don't have each other at their side. Chester knows about Mike's feelings and I love when at the end he called and Mike couldn't suppress that smile.. he would prefer to be driving for hours listening to Chester's voice instead of being home.. how messed up can that be...

From: Esmeralda

Date: 2018-12-20

Chapter: 41

It's really been difficult for me to read these OML chapters let alone review them... I don't know if is because of real life events and Chester is long gone and this fic feels so real... or if is because I know this fic is about to end and I don't want it to end. But you are doing a great job as always, by recreating what we think that really happened.


I know this is probably the way Chester felt with all the hate the band received regarding this album, and unfortunately from people that called themselves "fans". And said people now likes the album right!! I love it when Chester said just fuck them..


That kiss in the beginning, so full of passion.. I cannot believe that Mike still can't confess his true feelings.. even when this whole chapter felt like a love confession between the two of them. Invisible is also one of my favorites songs of the album, as well as Battle symphony.. so I'm really glad you mentioned it here..


Cannot wait to see how you will wrap everything up with Confession.. I'm so curious to see what will finally push Chester to say the truth about Mike's dreams and what was happening between them. Chester's final thoughts in this chapter. So heartbreaking.. at least we know it will get better than that for them.. finally..

From: JellyfishLP

Date: 2018-12-18

Chapter: 41

Such a good chapter, I really liked it. I'm sad the story is coming to an end (since it's already in the OML era), because it was absolutely fantastic, but on the other hand, it leads to Confessions, which we all know has a happy ending for them.


Please update soon :)

From: Penelope_Ink

Date: 2018-12-17

Chapter: 41

First off, I love the song Invisible. It's one of my favorites off of OML. I feel so bad for Chester here...the interviews. They were a struggle to watch, even at the time. With all the hate and stupid remarks and judgement coming from people, even before the album came out. I can't imagine how hard that must have been....and I love the way you show it here. I love Chester just saying 'fuck everyone' and slamming himself down on the bed. That's the pinnacle of frustration.


Mike is such the encourager and I think it's healthy he opened up the way he did. Not just about what Invisible is "really" about, but admitting that he feels guilt for pushing Chester and that he's never sure if he's making things better or worse and how terrible he would feel if all this was his fault. I love that part. I love seeing that honesty come out.


And when Chester was standing in front of him by the window, thinking about kissing him, it was like, yes! You know if you start it, Mike will just melt right into you! But he didn't. And was like, noooooooo. Damn it.


The ending portion of this was just sad. Chester's thoughts...especially the ending one, or the next to ending one...about how, these secret moments are all I'll ever get. That's just tragic. And of course we know that doesn't happen, but just think if we didn't know that? I'd be like, all up in your face with the how could yous? lol


And why wasn't the band there for all these interviews? I agree with Mike....something is/was off. Guess we'll never know. You should make up an answer for us :)


So freakin' ready for them to finally come out with all the feelings! And Chester, he's sooo ready! It's lining up with Confession so well.

From: mermaid_life87

Date: 2018-12-17

Chapter: 41

Definitely wasn't expecting the chapter to start out with them kissing but Im not complaining

From: halvlang

Date: 2018-12-17

Chapter: 41

That kiss in the beginning when Mike is sleeping? Damn... That was kind of hot and at the same time so innocent because only Chester is awake. So actually it was more tender and beautiful than hot but I can't help it, my little Bennoda-brain was jumping in happiness :)

The rest if the chapter was a bit more heavy. Chester being conflicted about it all (the album, their music, the interviews) as well as Mike - bit both being such good friend to each other and reinsuring each other. Wonderfull chapter. Maybe one of my favourites actually <3

From: allby2000

Date: 2018-12-16

Chapter: 41

❤️

From: bag_full_of_stars

Date: 2018-12-16

Chapter: 41

Again so beautiful.

The first scene is so delicate and full of emotions.

I bet that the "heavy" being not heavy musically was making them furious..

I love this story as much as the other one, even though this one is harder.

You are doing great job

From: Esmeralda

Date: 2018-12-07

Chapter: 40

What a beautiful chapter. I don't know if is because I'm getting into the Christmas spirit but I truly loved it. That scene at the end by the piano when Chester sat next to Mike and sang softly to the beautiful music. That moment was so intimate and they both know it. It's amazing how can you recreate these moments.


When Chester admitted to himself that all he wanted was to sing for Mike. And obviously there is nothing that Mike wants more than to play for Chester. So they really did enjoy that moment. And Mike also really loves Chester's spontaneity and craziness, such as that crazy idea of getting a Christmas tree out of nowhere. I guess it was one of those little things that made him fall in love.


In regards to the album, you are doing a great job. I guess this is exactly the way they felt when they were about to release that album. The uncertainty of not knowing if it will be accepted or not. A drastic change from whatever they did before. And I loved the hunting party but I also love OML. And is the way they can do anything and still do a great job that astonishes me the most.


When you mentioned about Chester's voice new limitations, I cannot help but think his voice sounded slightly different but still great and beautiful. And although I felt so sad with that bit about 2017 'Is gonna kick ass', it was truly a chapter I enjoyed.

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