blah blah you know the drill never met em, dont own em, but i wouldnt mind them owning me ;)

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I stand here and watch as people speed by, probably on their way home from work, back to their loved ones.

What's the point? Loved ones only hurt you in the end. I wonder how many faceless people have passed by not noticing me standing above them, watching them. I wonder how many of them are going to find out their loved one in bed with another.

I wonder if someone wondered this about me earlier today...

*flashback*

"Babe? I'm home, Mike wants you to call him about going over some tracks," I called out, and got no responce.

I figured he wasn't home, but didn't think anything of it. I wasn't expected back until late that night, and it was barely noon, I had been working on a few songs, but nothing was working right so I gave up and went home early.

I took of my jacket and sniffed the air.

"Damn I need a shower."

I walked up the stairs to the bedroom that he and I shared and noticed the bathroom light was on, and hearing the faint sound of water, thought my Love beat me to the shower.

I quickly undressed and opened the bathroom door quietly, to surprise my lover. I slowly pulled back the shower curtain.

"Babe..." my voice trailed off, and my jaw dropped.

"ROB!" he screetched.

"you sonofabitch!"

I turned and ran out, grabbing my clothes and dressing on the way to the front door. I grabbed my jacket and ran to my car.

*end flashback*

I'm numb. I don't know how long I've sat on top of this bridge. Not that it matters. Who's going to miss me?

I rub my eyes, trying to get rid of the image of MY lover, standing in MY shower, with MY best friend.

Theres a train in the distance, if I time it right I'll fall right in front of it, if the impact doesn't kill me then the train will. A noise snaps me out of my thoughts and turn my head. What does he want? How did he find me?

"Go away," I hiss at him.

"Rob, I've been looking for you for hours."

"Ches, just go away will you? I don't want anyone here for this."

"Don't do it man, please I need you."

"Ches, I can't. I love him, he is my whole life, and now that's gone, I'm not killing myself, my spirit is already dead, I just need to take care of the body."

"What do you mean that's gone? Dude what the hell are you talking about? Did you break up with him? Brad said you came home, freaked out and left," Chester said all in one breath.

I started crying, felt his arm slide around my shoulder, and gave I in, leaning into his warm body.

"Rob," he whispered in my ear, "come down, come home with me."

I was no longer sad, I didn't love Brad anymore, that prick didn't even have the decency to tell our friend the truth. I was angry, no scratch that, I was beyond pissed. I suddenly realized that I could feel, I wasn't numb anymore. I held Chester tighter and told him I didn't want to die.

It took me hours to warm up after we got to Chester's house. When I finally stopped shaking I told him everything.

I told him why I went home early.

I told him what I planned on doing in the shower.

I told him who I saw fucking my Brad, in my shower.

Then I looked at him. His jaw was open so wide I thought it would snap off.

"Ches please say something."

"Joe's gay?!"

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please review, tell me it sucks big time, or tell me its ok whatever, just tell me lol

and yeah rob and brad...um and joe lol theres not nearly enough fics about rob, and i love brad and joe but dont see them like that but i felt bad cause they dont get written about nearly enough (sorry phi i left you out completely!)