Valentine's Day

Chapter I: I regret everything

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I always write fluffy, drama or whatever shit but today I wanted to change so I decided to write angst (I think I failed miserably XP)...

I don't own Linkin Park of the other brands that are named in this fic

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Mike's POV

February 14, 2007

"Chester" I called barely audible.

"Hey Mike, what's up?" He answered happily,-As always- I thought making a smile form upon my lips

"Uhm you know which day is today?" I asked to him, a present awaiting for him in my hidden hands.

"Valentine's day, what's the matter with that?" He asked, confusion clearly in his voice, I blushed wildly.

His eyes scanned me, I feel a bit embarassed, like if I'm nude or something, suddenly my head drops a bit, at least to hide the blush.

"Uhm, Mike? Why did you get so quiet in an instant?" his voice showing slightly fear.

I was near the door so I kicked it softly, a soft "Slam" confirmed that the door was closed.

"Mike?Dude?What's that in your hands?Is that a Hershey's?" He asked various times pointing at my hidden hands.

"I-It's for you, C-Chester" I stuttetered -Good one, Shinoda- I thought, "I want y-you to...to...to..." tears started to form, I fall on my knees, leaving the Hershey's on the floor, I sobbed incontrolably.

"Please, Chester don't leave me!" as I hugged his legs, confusion clearly in his face,"I...I...I...I love you..." I said my voice cracking in every word, horror tainted his eyes, gross formed upon his lips, the face I came to love turned to a frown.

"Get the fuck away from me!" he shouted as he shaked his thin legs, my arms were weak, so he freed easily from me.

"Hey! What's going on here?!" shouted an angry Phi as Chester passed running next to him with a frown on his face, and me, I was left alone over the floor, endless crying filled the room, "Hey Mike, man are you okay?" asked Phoenix, "I-I'm okay, I just need to stand up!" I said sobbing, my words just inentendible panting.

"Ok man, take it easy,take it easy..." He says trying to comfort me.

"I need to go out!" I shouted while Phi held me

"Come here" as he pulled me close to his chest, but my hands reject his pull.

"Please Phi, just help me to stand!" I yelled madly.

Noticing that he didn't helped me I stood by myself, I started running madly, almost falling , arriving at the Studio's parking, realising that Chester's car dissappeared, my tears too, leaving my cheeks damped.

"Chester...Chester...Ches-ster! FORGIVE ME!!" I yelled to the emptiness.

I left all my things at the studio, not caring about them, I decide to slow my pace , and take a walk.

"Mike..." whispered Phoenix, putting a hand on my shoulder.

"I leave, I'll be back tomorrow" I whisper my answer, removing his hand from my shoulder.

I walk away from Phi leaving him there.

I walk without a destiny...Without a path

-May wounds heal, but it's always a scar that brings you back the dark memories- I thought, that fight, in which I almost lost my life, woke up in a bed connected to machines.

I run somewhere,people giving me strange looks,other giving me frowns.

Time seems to slow down for me.

I run, buildings pass as I run,people still giving me looks.

I'm tired, my legs can't run more, I stop at the beach.

Wild waves cry... what a sweet release they would give...

I walk on the shoreline... sand crunch as I walk on it.

A higher place, where waves crave for me... may the best option for everyone.

A sniffle escapes from my mouth, "I'm sorry to everyone who loved me" I whisper to myself, I see how the sky turns from orange to the darkest blue, tears flow freely, "But I think it's the best for everyone!" I said barely audible.

"There is no return, no things to regret later" I sigh "Bye to everyone"

I stand near the edge, waves crying, craving, this is my last breath,my last sight.

Bye Shinoda.

Cheste's POV

"Mike, is Chester, where are you?! you're worrying me!Please forgive about that!I never meant to make you feel so bad" I yelled into the phone, my eyes red and puffy, I punch the wall I shut the phone and call again "Hi, this is Michael Shinoda,please leave a message. Beep Beep Beep" I shut the phone again, it have been three months since Mike hadn't come to the studio, or talked to someone.

*RING* *RING* *RING*

"MIKE!" I yelled as I answer the phone happily.

"Mr. Bennington" said a male voice.

"Yeah, you're talking with him" I answered back dissapointing in my voice

"We had got a notice about your friend, Michael Kenji Shinoda" says again the strange man, "His corpse was found in the sea during February"

"..."

"Mr. Bennington? Are you still there?" asks the strange man

I shut the phone.

"M-Mike...M-Mike!" I break down "I didn't know I meant so m-much to you!"

*RING* *RING* *RING*

I answer the phone.

"Hey Chester it's Ro- wait,are you crying?" Rob asked.

"They found M-Mike's corpse!" I yelled to the phone, my eyes burning.

"..."

I cried, I shut the phone again,"M-Mike! I'm such a bastard! I didn't know, I'm stupid!" as I hit my head with the wall.

It's late for apologies, because of my inmature behaviour, I should had listened you Mike!

I regret everything that I said to you,I regret everything I make you feel, I REGRET WHAT I DID! I fell on my knees, punching the floor.

I sit at the edge of the couch, on the coffe table a photo of Mike and I, his red hair and piercings in his ears, a grin upon his lips and a friendly arm crossed over my neck, I grab the frame as a tear falls on the glass of the photo "I'm sorry Mike" I sniffled as I pull the frame close to my chest "You didn't deserved that!" I say as I fall asleep.

Rob's POV

"Chester told me that they have found Mike's corpse in the sea"I said a with a bit of fear.

"Jesus, seriously he told you that? He seems a bit freaked out"

"Brad, he's not freaked out, you know he's one of Mike's closest friends. May be someone called him and told that about Mike..." says Phoenix a bit of insecurity in his voice.

"Mike Shinoda's"said the guy on the news

"Hey Rob go back at that channel!" Said PhiPhi, and I changed it fast.

"But wh-" Brad was silenced by Phi with a "Shush!"

"Corpse have been found in the sea near the beach" said the guy on the TV as they put images of Mike's lifeless body.

The three Linkin Parkers were quiet.

"Mike..."Said Brad a tear falling to the curve of his cheek.

Everyone hugged each other trying to comfort the other.

A FEW WEEKS LATER

Today was Mike's funeral, the five Linkin Parkers assisted, and their families too..

Chester's POV

"Are you okay Chester? Are you sure that you want to talk?" Phi asked.

"Yeah,I'll go now" as I stand from my sit

I stood in front of everyone looking at me, other cleaning their faces from the tears.

"Since I met Mike, he always showed me how to do things that I didn't know that I could do, he always helped me in the tough times, he was a good friend" As my eyes start to form tears "He always loved like no one did, but I'm going to be sincere with you, when he told me that I turned my back on him and I feel so bad, I regret everything I did,I regret everything I said and actually I regret more than nothing... being alive now" as I drop my head

Tell me how it was I don’t care if you bash my fragile ego :P Nah just joking, for me, that it’s pretty shitty