wow you guys actully thought it was good surprising hahahaha and i got another idea for this chapter music is so inspirational!

thanks to the people that updated and yea one of you guys requested one and so i update for ya and i belive this person was spike shinnizle

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~Rob's P.O.V~

We've been together for two weeks..to fucking weeks and already we're having problems. Damn what the hell is wrong with me. I know you want physicaly contact but that's something I can't give I'm to scared. And we haven't even told the other guys yet and there suspecting something. I know you want to but yet again I'm scared. Why am I so damn scared. And thanks to my fear I've been alone in the house for three hours.

In my place, in my place,

Were lines that I couldn't change,

I was lost, oh yeah.

I was lost, I was lost,

Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed,

I was lost, oh yeah.

Im such a screw up I knew I was going to be the one to somehow start those jagged edges to this relationship. I can't get over the fear. I know he won't leave me or hurt me but I can't help it. For the past three hours I haven't moved myself from the bedroom. You havent return and the hours are just going to keep on adding up. It's not my fault, you don't know a damn about my past. I know I have to tell you but I can't..if I do you'll leave me.

Yeah, how long must you wait for it?

Yeah, how long must you pay for it?

Yeah, how long must you wait for it?

Oh for it

I don't understand why the guys have to know what if they hate us..or get mad I don't even want to think about that. And i've freaked out three times from physical contact..but I can't help it because I'm so scared that you'll be rough. I know you won't but I can't help it. My nightmares have lessen a bit but haven't completely stopped.

I was scared, I was scared,

Tired and under prepared,

But I wait for it.

Yet you still remain to stay with me which surpries me you hold me when I need to be held and your soothing words calm me. I feel safe when I'm with you, I feel whole. I know you feel the same you tell me that when I ask if you hate me. I don't know why I have such bad thoughts. But I can't help it..I know..I'm probably not giving you what you want. I'm not giving enough. And you'll probably leave me.

And if you go, if you go,

Leave me down here on my own,

Then I'll wait for you, yeah.

How many times do I have to tell you that I'm not ready...I know you are but I'm not..Im not as brave as you Brad. I wish I were than maybe you'd be here right now holding me. Great..I'm crying again.

Yeah, how long must you wait for it?

Yeah, how long must you pay for it?

Yeah, how long must you wait for it?

Oh for it

I crawl into our bed..wait..possibly my bed tonight..you might not come back and just the thought of it makes me cry harder. I bring the pillow you lie on close inhaling you scent wishing you were here right now. Telling me it's alright that you wont leave me..that you love me.

Sing it please, please, please,

Come back and sing to me,

To me, me.

Come on and sing it out, now, now.

Come on and sing it out

To me, me

Come back and sing.

Reality check..that's not going to happen. I glance at the clock and notice that it's 8:30 p.m..yea your comming back you left at around 5 and haven't come back since. I tried calling you but you turned your cell off. I wanted to call the others but they'd get suspicious. I'm so lost right now because I don't know what to do without you..I'm..empty.

In my place, in my place,

Were lines that I couldn't change,

I was lost, oh yeah.

Oh yeah.

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~Brad's P.O.V~

I've gone for three hours...we got into another argument again and as always its my fault..I overreacted but how can I not when you don't trust me. None the less I came home at around nine. When I did I regret leaving you alone for three hours because you were crying again. Your beutiful face was tear stained you were curled up into a ball clutching my pillow tightly. See why do I always do this to you. I love you with all my heart and I make you cry. I shake you gently.

"Rob get up"

You shift and let out a whimper you eyes snapping open your sad brown eyes meet mines. When you see me you just stare afraid to move. I extend my arms you break down crawling into them immidiately sobbing into my shirt mummbling Im sorry.

"Shh Rob it's okay baby," I whisper

"Im sorry Brad..we can tell the others just just dont leave me," you whimper

"I would never leave you what ever gave you that I idea"

"Becuase of me..Im not giving enough..I dont want to the others..and let you touch me"

See what did I tell you I made this angel of mines cry..damn why do I always do that. I remove my shirt and lay down holding my lover close as he continues to apologiez.

"It's okay Rob," I say soothingly

You cuddle closer to me "Im sorry Brad..im to scared"

"It's okay..I should be sorry..if your not ready..I shouldn't have pushed you or gotten mad"

"But it's my fault to..because.."

Before you can finish I cut you off by kissing you gently surprisingly you don't pull away "It's not your fault okay..stop blaming yourself Im the one that yelled and left and kept on pushing you," before you can say anything I cut you off by placing a finger to your lips "You are giving me enough Rob your presence and love is all I need I just overreacted and my anger got the best of me and Im sorry for that," I take a deep breath "When your ready we can tell the others and if your not ready for physical contact I can wait."

"Okay..," you whisper

"Good..now sleep now," I said holding you closer

"Night Braddles"

"Night Robbles"

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Song used

In My Place By Coldplay

ive clearly fallen in love with rob angst for some reason..dont know why but gota love it for some reaon so yea gonna be some more hurt and crying rob later in the chappys if i decide t conitue that is r/r